I have been a real slacker when it comes to this community. I get the e-mails every day but haven't posted in forever. Thanks to the treatment, I don't come out from under my rock very often (the light bothers me).

But I had to share my excitement. I just took shot #47. My last shot is July 4. Due to some screwy things that happened with the timing of my shots, my last pills won't be until July 14. I can't believe this living hell is almost over.

TO THOSE OF YOU JUST STARTING OUT, PLEASE HANG IN THERE. YOU CAN DO IT!!


Oddly enough, I'm more scared about ending the treatment than I was about beginning. I think it's a fear of the unknown. When I started I knew what I was in for. Once I quit ingesting and shooting up these drugs, I have no idea how long it's going to take me to get my life, health, eyes and brain back - if ever.

One thing I want to do when this is all over is destroy my purple bucket. I have carried that damned thing around with me every single day to catch whatever my body might decide to spew out. I think I'm going to break it up into tiny pieces and make stepping stones for my garden. That way I can walk all over the miserable thing and never forget this time.