Ok here is a little about me. Probably to much to know but background is good.

Well I found out I was HIV+ and had Hep C back in June of 2003 i did the whole dr thing got the liver biopsy and and all that good stuff dr said all looked fine and that I had genotype 1a(i think thats what he said) he told me that it cant be cured even with the shots and what not. Great I thought and that was the last time I went to see a dr for anything I just gave up and denied it untill this february when i met someone who gave me the push I needed to go back to a different dr and get medical all taken care of.

Ok I did all this and just got the results from labwork and stuff last thursday Now I am pos for Hep B and need to start meds for the hiv. Blah blah blah.

I go in next week for my ct scan and another biopsy and was told i would have to start the shots if it doesnt cure the hepc then at least will kill the b they said. How bad are the shots really. I hear so many horror stories. My ex's father said alot of people he knew that started the treatment ended up commiting suicide. And when the dr said they would do a pshych evaluation on me before they do the shots I got a little scared as I think about suicide all the time. Between that and the cost of the shots and everything with the hiv and crap I am just want to curl up in the corner and die half the time. All I can think about is what the hell am I gonna do I cant afford this with no insurance and cant afford to cut hours at work because then I would loose my only way to get to the dr and back. Part of me just wants to run away and forget I even have a problem.


I just want my old life back before the whole drug episode wich was only 6 months. I know people that did and still do drugs for alot longer than that and dont have these problems.


Ok just bitching post but I would like to know about the shots like I said are they really as bad as people say they are